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How to Survive an Ending

by The Collection

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1.
Seems like you’re back upon your own legs Seems like you’re finding your own voice I used to hear it every morning But now we finally have a choice Some days I wanted peace and quiet Some days I want a violent song Some days it’s easier to forget All of the days we got it wrong And maybe we’re crazy for letting it end Maybe we were for letting it start But it’s been a path to a bigger heart So give me those rose-colored glasses I will remember this any way that I wish Rose-colored glasses Let me swim out of this separate heaviness I know I could pick it all apart And I’m sure that you could too So give me those rose-colored glasses When I look back at me and you Oooh, when I look back at me and you So many things have turned out different Than we predicted that they would You’re looking stronger from a distance I’m redefining what is good I’m redefining what is good I’m redefining what is good So give me those rose-colored glasses I will remember this any way that I wish Rose-colored glasses Let me swim out of this separate heaviness I know I could pick it all apart And I’m sure that you could too So give me those rose-colored glasses When I look back at me and you Oooh, when I look back at me and you The headlight’s reflection changes perspective Show me the water but not what’s beneath it Memories painted with our defenses All open spaces will somehow find fences And we would be crazy to start it again Or maybe we were for falling apart But it’s been a path to a bigger heart So give me those rose-colored glasses I will remember this any way that I wish Rose-colored glasses Let me swim out of this separate heaviness I know I could pick it all apart And I’m sure that you could too So give me those rose-colored glasses When I look back at me and you Oooh, when I look back at me and you Ooh, when I look back at me and you
2.
Get Lost 02:54
Why you sleeping in a graveyard? Did you like the way it felt? I’ve been showing all of my cards When you hoped that I wouldn’t tell And it goes one, two, three They pray for me I am working to get free I eat my apologies ‘Cause I do not fit I am too big The room is too small And I am getting through with these walls Blew off the lid Marry the cost ‘Cause all I wanna do is get lost, ooh ooh Lost, ooh ooh All I wanna do is get lost, ooh ooh Lost, ooh ooh All I wanna do is get lost Why you so afraid of pleasure? Did you hope to die on a hill? You’ve been keeping up a ledger That you wrote while standing still And it goes four, five, six I’m getting high You’re still trying to get by Well, I’m not sorry for my size ‘Cause I do not fit I am too big The room is too small And I am getting through with these walls Blew off the lid Marry the cost ‘Cause all I wanna do is get lost, ooh ooh Lost, ooh ooh All I wanna do is get lost Until I’m caught in the unknown Don’t have to decide I can make a lot of places home I built it inside You will never know until you try I’ll get why you just hug the corner of your eye ‘Cause I do not fit I am too big The room is too small And I am getting through with these walls Blew off the lid Marry the cost ‘Cause all I wanna do is get lost, ooh ooh Lost, ooh ooh All I wanna do is get lost, ooh ooh Lost, ooh ooh All I wanna do is get lost
3.
I’m losing my attention while the whole world dies Been scrolling through addictions with no appetite Don’t really wanna mention it How are you? I am fine A little tired of living but I don’t want to die In another lockdown Stuck inside this shit town I can’t find a way ‘round My intrusive thoughts now My therapist thinks I should get a hobby Maybe if you call me I could do my best to pick up ‘Cause I got one more hour I got one more step Might not make it further But I won’t stop yet No, I won’t go covered Under my regret Might not make it further But I won’t stop yet Been standing in the kitchen staring at the fridge And practicing division trying to pay the rent It’s such a tough decision if I should lie or sit I’ll take up meditation, then decide to quite When I get hungry Burning out at lightspeed If somebody finds me Please excuse the house is a mess ‘Cause I got one more hour I got one more step Might not make it further But I won’t stop yet No, I won’t go covered Under my regret Might not make it further But I won’t stop yet I won’t stop yet I’m buried down under the table I won’t stop yet I’ve never been this tired before I won’t stop yet I’m carrying as much as I’m able I won’t stop yet I hope that I can go a little more ‘Cause I got one more hour I got one more step Might not make it further But I won’t stop yet No, I won’t go covered Under my regret Might not make it further But I won’t stop yet
4.
I want to place you on my tongue I want to watch you come undone Wrap around every sound Move me Shadows dancing on the walls Can we make the room dissolve? Nothing left but heavy breath Move me I just want to feel until I feel nothing I just want to heal from becoming something I am now an addict of all of that magic And I can’t give it up, up, up I just want to feel until I feel nothing I just want to scream until I stop breathing I am now an addict of everything magic And I can’t give it up, up, up I’m an addict of it all Yeah, I’m an addict of it all Just gonna live to break my fall I’m an addict of it all I took a couple tabs too many And I woke up in infinity Everything became the same Move me I just wanna lose my mind I don’t wanna get lost in time Laugh or cry Live or die Move me I just want to feel until I feel nothing I just want to heal from becoming something I am now an addict of all of that magic And I can’t give it up, up, up I just want to feel until I feel nothing I just want to scream until I stop breathing I am now an addict of everything magic And I can’t give it up, up, up Yeah, I’m an addict of it all Yeah, I’m an addict of it all Just gonna live to break my fall I’m an addict of it all, all, all I’m an addict of it all I’m an addict of it all Just gonna live to break my fall Yeah, I’m an addict of it all, all, all I’m an addict of it all I’m an addict of it all Just gonna live to break my fall Yeah, I’m an addict of it all, all, all I’m an addict of it all Yeah, I’m an addict of it all Just gonna live to break my fall I’m an addict of it all, all, all I’m an addict of it all Yeah, I’m an addict of it all Just gonna live to break my fall Yeah, I’m an addict of it all, all, all I’m an addict of it all Yeah, I’m an addict of it all Just gonna live to break my fall Yeah, I’m an addict of it all, all, all, all, all
5.
Sorry Baby 03:17
I don’t know, I don’t know How to get out of this I have been locked in my head And everyone, everyone’s Got their own opinions I have been buried in them I can be kind if kindness is called for I can tear my heart for you I can be nice if niceness is needed I can swallow up the blues But I ain’t gonna say sorry, baby There is a time and it isn’t now Sorry, baby I’m doing fine and you’re not allowed in my head I’m doing fine and you’re not allowed in my head I’m doing fine and you’re not allowed I can be, I can be Anything I want to be I don’t really need your two cents So stay with me, quietly Pointing out all that I need But leave me without taking offense I can be soft if someone is hurting I can give my heart away I can be strong if courage is waning I can choose the words that I say And I ain’t gonna say sorry, baby There is a time and it isn’t now Sorry, baby I’m doing fine and you’re not allowed in my head I’m doing fine and you’re not allowed in my head I’m doing fine and you’re not allowed in my head (I’m making my way back home) Let it go, cause I’m gonna listen to my heartbeat (I’m making my way back home) Let it go, cause I’m gonna cut it with my own teeth, baby (I’m making my way back home) Let it go, let it go ‘cause I’m gonna fall and scrape my own knees (I’m making my way back home) Let it go, let it go It’s a lot, it’s a lot Working out what I am not Anyone I know would get lost But there’s a sea, there’s a sea Changing tides inside of me If you stay, you’re bound to get caught And I ain’t gonna say sorry, baby There is a time and it is not now Sorry, baby I’m doing fine and you’re not allowed in my head I’m doing fine and you’re not allowed in my head I’m doing fine and you’re not allowed in my head
6.
I cannot find a place to rent You can’t afford an accident The dreams of our tomorrows under ashes of today They had to move the beach house back My parents still won’t cut me slack A carousel of violence A twitter call for change Was there always something in my eye? A trauma bond is easily won tonight But we found love at the end of the world And I don’t think I feel guilty for feeling something at all When there is nothing but clutching at pearls In the ruins of this city I welcome love at the end of the world I’m sorry that I still want kids Don’t wanna know what Johnny did The evil of two lessers Ten hours on my phone Vacation homes in outer space The finish line of the human race Depression, sex, and uppers New ways to be alone Baby, is that something in your eye? Can’t you help with turning off the lights? Cause we found love at the end of the world And I don’t think I feel guilty for feeling something at all When there is nothing but clutching at pearls In the ruins of this city I welcome love at the end of the world Is it okay to feel this happy beneath the shadow of the wave? I got to heaven when you kiss me and give the hell a brief escape But we found love at the end of the world And I don’t think I feel guilty for feeling something at all When there is nothing but clutching at pearls In the ruins of this city I welcome love at the end of the world Love at the end of the world At the end of the world At the end of the world Embracing love at the end of the world Love at the end of the world At the end of the world At the end of the world Come be my love at the end of the world

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I can’t stop thinking about endings - the end of a relationship, the end of my fearful identity, the end of my patience, the end of the world. All my songs started to be about these endings and how to handle them with strength and confidence, instead of being bulldozed by them. I think the music reflects this, too - it’s a more bold and more confident version of The Collection and built off of the last year of the ups and downs of road life as a band family. We've become more confident in who we are over the last 18 months, and now know how to pull each other through an ending.

I wrote most of these songs on an old piano I kept in my kitchen. It was between the tea cups and fridge. We recorded them all over North Carolina. Some of the tracks were recorded in the beautiful Echo Mountain Studio in Asheville, NC, which was a ‘bucket list’ experience, for sure.

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released January 27, 2023

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